Worry: The Energy Waster

Worry: The Energy Waster

A few months ago, I wrote a post about anticipatory anxiety and the useless but frequent habit I have of worrying about what I think might happen in the future.

When I moved to London for the year, I told Mike that I was worried about enrolling for this years June yoga retreat in Muskoka because for the first time since I started teaching, I wasn't going to have any presence on a regular schedule in Oakville/Mississauga/Toronto. He tried his best to reassure me but deep down the irrational voice in my head was worried that no one would sign up because everyone would have forget about me by then. Sounds so silly typing it out and sharing that with the world, but let's face it, I'm sure you that you too hear a lot of stupid things between those two ears of yours. 

Only You Know

Only You Know

I complicate things. It's a skill I've mastered over the years. From the simple decisions of daily life like: what should I have for dinner? To the big picture questions like: what's my life purpose? I overanalyze everything - especially in the wee hours of the morning when I can't sleep and am certainly not going to find any answers. 

I remember sitting with a friend a while back, struggling with indecision around a major life choice and after telling her everything that way flying around in my head I said: I just don't know what to do

She responded: 
"But you do know. You just don't want to do it." 

Consistency is Key

Consistency is Key

A few months ago I vowed to give up being paralyzed by my quest for writing perfection. I finally started blogging again and took it one step further by committing to put out a new post every Monday morning. Aside from a little break I took over the Holidays, I have been really consistent with my weekly blog post and it feels great. I'm inspired and in love - okay fine, some days maybe not - with the process of writing again and for the first time in, well maybe forever, I'm not really concerned with who is out there reading. I'm writing for me because it feels really, really good to just be creating again.

If there's one thing I've learned from listening to countless podcasts about writing, entrepreneurship and anything in the realm of creativity, it's that we can't just sit around waiting for inspiration to strike.

On To The Next One

On To The Next One

For those of you reading this that practice yoga, I want you to think of a pose that is out of your reach. One that you eye on Instagram. One that you feel a little twinge of jealousy when the person next to you in class float up like a little angel into it and you, the commoner, are left behind in some basic pose. 

If you don't do yoga, I want you to think about something in your life that you really want. The job promotion, the big house, the rockin' body or in the words of Queen, somebody to love. The type of thing that isn't a part of your life right now but that you tell yourself if you could just have that thing, that success or that partner, then you'd finally be happy. 

It's a part of who we are. I often struggle with balancing my deeply rooted desire to do and be more - which we all have - with my desire to be present, appreciate what I have and not be so hard on myself

Playlist of the Month: January

Playlist of the Month: January

So yes, I'm a little late to the punch here but as you all know, January was a slow start for me with my trip home. Here's what I'm moving around my mat to this month and I'll warn you, it's a bit more dance/house inspired than some of my Muskoka playlists with lots of good oldies. So if the dance-y stuff isn't your thing, check back in February.

Feel free to follow along on Spotify if that makes for easier listening. 

Happy Flowing! Xo  

Direct - Tranquility
Izzamuzzic - Adventure - Original Mix
Gavin James, Richard Judge - For You - J.U.D.G.E. Remix
Nall, Lawrence - Angkor

The Simple Things have the Biggest Impact

The Simple Things have the Biggest Impact

I'm back to school today and so excited about it. As you read this I'll be immersed in Day 1 of Module 2 of my 300-Hour Teacher Training with Jason Crandell. I learned so much from him in Module 1 that despite the full schedule, long hours and way too much time sitting on the floor for anatomy, I didn't want it to end. I'm excited to be diving in again so I can share more with all of you! Module 1 focused on the Hips + Legs. Module 2 is all about building integrity and stability in the Core + Spine. We practice what we're learning so in all honestly, I'm a little scared. Say a little prayer for my tummy muscles

My biggest takeaway from Module 1 and what I'm excited to explore further in the next two weeks is how the simplest parts of our practice have the biggest impact.

Intentions Diverted

Intentions Diverted

It seems like so many of you have kicked off this year with clear intentions and big goals. I've been loving all the enthusiasm that you've shown for 2018. I always like to have a healthy, productive and inspired January but I have to be honest with you.

My first week of 2018 was anything but that.

I pretty much did the opposite of what most of you were doing and I wouldn't have it any other way. It was a lovely and much needed break from the healthy and sometimes rigid routine that I often find myself in. That said, when I returned to London a week ago I was ready to get back to it with two very clear intentions for this month.

1. Save Money. London is expensive!
2. Eat Healthy. More specifically, eat most of my meals at home. 

To the one who...

To the one who...

To the one who has always struggled with her body...

The one who looks in the mirror and hates what she sees.
The one who doesn't like looking at pictures because she picks herself apart.
The one who is at the gym drowning in sweat because she wants to shrink.
The one who sees beauty in everyone else but can't see it in herself.

I hope that this is the year that you learn to love yourself for who you are already...

The year that you see your body as a gift instead of curse.
The year you pipe up when your inner critic starts to pick yourself apart.
The year you appreciate what your body can do instead of just what it looks like.
The year you throw out the belief that your value in this world is tied to how you look. 

Is the work worth it?

Is the work worth it?

Whenever I find myself deep in conversation with someone else about the future and my goals there's always one thing that sneaks its way in on top of the expected yoga, mindfulness and helping others. Writing. I went to school for it. I love it. I've always wanted to do something - even though I'm not quite sure what that something is - with writing. 

But here's the thing. Writing is hard. If you do it right, the reading is easy. But the actual writing part? Not so much. It takes time. It takes effort. And sometimes it takes writing 100 bad sentences to get just one good one. Which doesn't fit well with life today.

We live in a world of instant gratification.
Need an immediate answer on something? Google.

Gift Guide: What to get the Yogi in your Life?

Gift Guide: What to get the Yogi in your Life?

It's December 14th. 

Did anyone else wake up today and realize that none of the Christmas shopping is done? As in it hasn't even been started?

This happens to me every. single. year. Maybe it's because I don't like shopping. Maybe it's that I have trouble making decisions. I always end up doing my Christmas shopping last minute. In an effort to further procrastinate on my own list, I've decided to help you instead!

Wait, I'm the one with an accent?

Wait, I'm the one with an accent?

I was at Tesco the other day doing a quick little grocery shop. I'd brought my own reusable bag to carry my things home so when the cashier asked me if I'd like a bag I quickly and happily replied (as my parents taught me) 'No Thank You'!

She stared at me for a moment with a big smile, repeated 'No Thank You' a few times and giggled. I stood there wondering what was so funny. Was it weird that I said Thank You? Did she think I was too polite? Was there something in my teeth? I was confused and I'm sure my face showed it so she finally explained herself.

"Your accent, it's so cute!"

Playlist of the Month: December

Playlist of the Month: December

My Friends, I guess I've been in quite a dance(y) mood this month. This ones got quite a few house songs on it so if that's not your thing, maybe skip December and check back in the New Year. I'll switch it up I promise.

Special shout out to 'My Way' which is thanks to one of my spinning teachers and 'Runaway' another good one by Ziggy. I'm pretty much obsessed with both so at the very least listen to those two!

My 4 Tips for Meditation

My 4 Tips for Meditation

The number of times in the last decade that I've told myself I was finally going to start meditating (like for real though) and then dropped off a day, a week or a month later is actually laughable.

I was initially hooked on the physical side of yoga because it delivered results I could see - a stronger body, an advancing practice and an increased ability to breath into poses that push me far outside of my comfort zone. Meditation on the other hand was 5 or 10 minutes of discomfort that just confirmed I was one of those people that talked to myself, all the time.

Are your Beliefs Limiting You?

Are your Beliefs Limiting You?

One of the main reasons - there are too many to count - that I feel called to share yoga with the world is because of what it's done for me. My practice was the first thing that gave me the tools to notice what was happening in my head, the perspective to see how this was impacting my life and the wisdom to know that the power to change was actually within me. It taught me that I always have a choice.

Here's the catch though. That choice is only available to me and you when we are able to recognize that something needs to change. We have to have the self-awareness to connect the dots between what we're thinking and how we're feeling.  

A Gentle Reminder to be Grateful

A Gentle Reminder to be Grateful

I want you to be completely honest with yourself for a moment.

Do you spend more time appreciating your life or complaining about it?

I'd say a lot of us, even if we don't like to admit it, are complainers. We focus on what we think needs to change for us to finally accept ourselves. We set our sights on what we think we need to do to one day be happy. But as the saying goes, happiness is an inside job. It doesn't come from out there, we have to create it for ourselves. 

Anticipatory Anxiety - We All Have It

Anticipatory Anxiety - We All Have It

"I'VE LIVED THROUGH SOME TERRIBLE THINGS IN MY LIFE,
SOME OF WHICH ACTUALLY HAPPENED"
- MARK TWAIN

I remember so clearly the first time I read this quote. I was living at home, a few months into the start of actually getting help with my anxiety. I had just started doing yoga. I was soaking up all the mental health information that I could and was specifically drawn to the stories of people who had been through something similar. It was comforting to hear that I wasn't the only one with a mind that ran wild. 

Blue Sky is a Bonus

Blue Sky is a Bonus

When I told people I was moving to London, I got used to hearing that most of my days would be wet and grey and that I better get my umbrella ready. I was warned of how tough the winters can be over here and that I better hop on a flight every now and then to soak up some sun. It's only November but yes, I can confirm, it's pretty grey, pretty often.

As you can imagine, when I finally made the move, my weather expectations were low. I expect it to be dark and rainy every single day. Because of this, I no longer take something as simple as sunshine for granted. When I wake up to bright blue sky, it feels like such a gift. 

So you think you aren't ready to teach yoga?

So you think you aren't ready to teach yoga?

I felt the same way.

It was the Fall of 2010 and I was going to yoga every single day. Power Yoga CanadaClarkson was like a second home to me. I was in love with the practice, inspired by the community and was finally starting to understand those people that claimed yoga had changed their life. I was constantly eyeing posters and hearing buzz around the next round of Kinndli’s 200-hour Yoga Teacher Training program that would be starting that January.